imacookiefiend returns

Hello everyone! It seems like forever since my last post. I had given up on blogging because my life has been a little chaotic for the last few months and it seemed like I just didn’t have time to do anything really for myself.

I’ve been trying very hard to make myself actually do things like go to birthday parties when I don’t really feel like leaving the house and go to movies and brunches but I haven’t quite managed to make myself go to the gym.

I think in part it’s because things have been so busy that once I get home I just want to hangout with my Landshark a.k.a german shepherd who is also a cookie fiend.

The great thing about her is that she gets me out of the house and takes me on long walks. I joke that she was my coach and got me to go from couch potato to 5k road race finisher last month, but it’s true.

Although she is still rambunctious and a little unruly on walks she loves being outside and is happier when she is active. Taking her on long walks helps keep her out of mischief and also helps keep shoes and furniture intact.

She will be turning 2 in just a few months and is still just a big fluffy puppy with so much energy and love.

When there is so much craziness in the world, she reminds me of how important it is to do good if only to be deserving of a fraction of all the love she shares with me and all her humans everyday.

Whatever journey you’re on, keep at it because you’ll come out stronger in the end.

Thanks for reading!

 

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Zumbies

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Zumbies

As those of you who have been following my blog for sometime know, my friend A.G is getting married this summer. As such everyone is in workout mode. Although, we’ve both been working on fitness and keeping the weight we’ve lost off, it still is a struggle.

A.G’s motivation is a little more powerful than mine, as she has a dress to fit into…Still, the thought of me in a bathing suit should also motivate me to NOT skip workouts, and yet it doesn’t quite do the trick. This cold Canadian weather, ideal for warm sweatpants and big fluffy sweater can easily make you lose your focus and fall back into complacency…

So to avoid spiraling down the path I was on before, I’ve really had to dig very deep for motivation.  You know it’s bad when you start making excuses to miss your favorite Zumba class.  Still, there was one thing that had kept me coming to class and that is trying to learn a little dance AG wants us to do at her wedding.  Of course knowing that it takes me at the very least 7 months of prep time, I’ve had to keep going to Zumba.  Still, I have to say my progress was not looking promising at all.

I was however hopeful that once I pulled off AG’s belated Christmas surprise, things would improve.  Since AG reads my blog I hadn’t really been able to write about our secret plan to surprise her with a private Zumba lesson from our amazing instructor.  The plan was to have some of her closest friends get together and practice the song she wants us to perform at her wedding.  I’m happy to say that after months of schedule conflicts and cancellations we managed to pull it off.

Our turnout was not as expected but it was actually just the right size 🙂  AG’s face was priceless as she saw our Zumba instructor in the lobby of her building.  Total #fangirl moment.  It took her a few moments to figure out what was going on, but from then on she couldn’t really hide her excitement (and I have pictures and video footage to prove it).  I honestly couldn’t stop laughing when I started sending her the pics and video, because through most of her still shots she’s got the hugest smile!

In her own words, she was star struck, and I believe her.  You see AG loves taking selfies and for her to shy away from her phone, well it takes a lot.  In all honestly her crush level was comparable to that of a fan girl meeting Zac Effron, except she was trying to contain it and not appear too creepy, but the smile said it all lol!  We had a pretty great time, discovered that our Zumba instructors call our group their Zumbies, and also confirmed without a doubt that AG’s is without a doubt a solid Jenna Marble level 1 girl crush 🙂

So as I struggle through these next few weeks battling my eating habits, and crushing my excuses not to go to the gym, I’ll hold on to the fun times of Zumba, AG’s surprise, RubySlippers’ advice and remind myself why I’m doing what I do.  Motivation you see is the biggest part of it all and you have to make sure that no matter what anyone says you personally convince yourself that you are worth it!  That you are important and that you deserve to work on yourself, to improve and to train hard everyday to be the person you dream of being.

The truth is, it won’t be easy.  It won’t happen overnight.  There will be struggles, you will lose some battles, but if you stay the course, get back up, and keep at it, you will win the war against your fears, and that little voice in your head saying I Can’t.  If you ever feel like giving in or giving up, please don’t, just keep going because it really is like RubySlippers says: “You’ve got this!”

Day Off

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off-day-largeSometimes you just need a day off. Maybe not from your day to day obligations, but more so from people or things in your life that bog you down. I’ve come to realize that no matter how hard you try, you can’t please everybody. Sometimes in an attempt to make everyone else around you happy, you lose the balance in your life that once made you happy.

I’ve also discovered that some people love being miserable. They cling to drama and at times create it just to hold on to a twisted sense of power they feel over either playing victim or trying to make others feel guilty about being happy when they themselves are not. I don’t know if they are aware that they are doing this, and quite honestly I hope that they don’t do it purposely because intentionally raining on your friend’s parade is a horrible thing to do.

Unfortunately, I know two or three of these people. I’ve known them for a long time, and I think that’s why it’s so hard to sever ties… Still, I’ve know for a while now that I need a lot of distance from them. Because at the end of the day, they are toxic.

You might know people like them in your life. People who leave you feeling slightly depressed after every conversation with them. And by this I don’t mean a friend who is going through hard times or someone who has an uphill battle going on in their lives. Those are after all legitimate reasons for leaning on your friends, and I for one am all for helping your friends especially when they’re down.  But the people I’m referring to are those who have everything to be happy but don’t enjoy life because they keep looking back and even hold on to old grudges of something someone said or did in high school that nobody even remembers.  People who try to look for flaws in anything you say or do or who can’t move on without having the last word.  People who can’t even be happy for you when you have good news to share with them, and come close to making you feel bad about your good news.

Perhaps I’m not the bigger person at this time in my life, but I feel that if I’m working on me I have to make sure that I find ways of effectively shielding myself from their negativity or put some distance between me and them. For some it might mean taking a day off and away from them and for others it might mean an indefinite hiatus from those people who seem to have a knack for sucking the joy not only out of their lives, but out of others.

As for those with whom it’s close to impossible to distance myself from, then I’ve decided that I simply need to think happy thoughts when I’m around them, think of my favorite Dr.Seuss quotes and or maybe even mentally sing while they rant. I also have to remind myself that the things they say are not really about me, but a reflection of them and how they feel about themselves. Because if you can’t be happy for the sunshine in the life of the people you’re supposed to love and care about, then there’s some major issues you might need help working through.

Final Thoughts:

Overall it’s been a cold yet happy day today.  I’m doing something I really love, so work doesn’t feel like work and time seems to fly by.  I’ve taken a day off from caring about crappy things others have to say.  I’ve chosen to only believe what I want on this Off Day.  It also helps that A) I want to dream and believe only happy things today and B) I’ve found out my friend JT will be coming from all the way across the world to hang out & maybe hit a few Starbucks (official birth place of this blog) for cookies nom, nom, nom…Can’t Wait for boxing day, or more importantly JT’s flight arrival day!!!!

Note 2U:

  • Always chose happiness!
  • Don’t let a little rain stop you from dancing!
  • Be kind to yourself & others

Skunked

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skunk_sprayOne more week down! Probably one of the hardest weeks, mainly because I’ve had to eat out for lunch at the office, and as fun as that is, it can be a tricky business. Especially because there are so many delicious albeit high calorie options that are way more appealing than a vegetarian taco salad and a cardboard tasting vegan-ish dessert. Which in a way is good because if all dessert tasted like that then I would get into a habit of always skipping it!

Although I’ve had a really good week personally and work wise, I can’t say the same for my challenge…Which I’m not going to lie, is a bit disappointing. But, since we’ve decided to keep our glass 1/2 full glasses on, then it’s just a matter of tweaking things a bit to see if that might work better.

This Week’s Post Thanksgiving Feast Game Plan Was:

  • Monday: Spin Class
  • Tuesday: Skipped out on my workout
  • Wednesday: Zumba
  • Thursday: Spin Class
  • Friday: Zumba
  • Saturday: Walk turned skunk run…
  • Sunday: Rest day

Results:

  • Sleeping better
  • More Energy to get me through my longer days
  • Weight maintained
  • 0.5 Lbs lost

Final Thoughts:
Sometimes I find it hard to focus on the positive results, especially when I fall short of the one goal I really wanted to meet. Still, as bummed out as I might be, I have to keep in mind that it took years of unhealthy eating habits to put that weight on, so it will take a while and a lot of effort to shred it off. It’s about really finding sustainable healthy alternatives. Things I’ll stick to, long after I reach my ultimate weight loss goal. So if you’re going through something similar, I get it.  Still, whether you’ve lost zero pounds or ten this week, remember to feel proud of the effort you’ve put into getting better and stronger.

Then, ask yourself if you’ve really given 100% of yourself. If you have, then that’s awesome, keep at it and make next week even better! If you haven’t given it your all, then find out why. Are you sabotaging yourself? What excuses are holding you back?

Be honest with yourself, and if at the end of the day you realize that the problem is you just half-assing it, then it’s time to step up your game, and bring it! Change your playlist, throw some sneakers on and train hard, because that’s the only way you’ll get results. I know it and you know it, now we basically just have to listen to Nike and JUST DO IT!

So learn from my mistakes, and keep at it! Try something new like running, cycling or even Zumba and give it a chance before you give up on it. Don’t be like me, don’t wait for a Zombie Apocalypse or your neighborhood skunks to charge full speed towards you on your evening walk to get back into running…I can laugh about it now, but a few hours ago it wasn’t funny at all!

Thanksgiving

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Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving! I know that Thanksgiving might be different where you are, but at the end of the day, everyday should be a day of giving thanks. We live in such a chaotic and unpredictable world, and that’s why I honestly believe that amidst all the madness, we need to take a moment to ourselves each day and think of at least one thing that we are thankful for. It doesn’t matter how small or insignificant it might seem to others, as long as it’s something that keeps your glimmer of hope going, then that’s really all that matters.

If there ever is a day when things are so dark that you can’t even find one thing to be thankful for. Then, think back to when you were a kid, when jumping in a puddle made you giggle, when playing with a box was an adventure, when watching Saturday morning cartoons was magical, and when running and jumping around was just playing and not a workout. That inner child is always with you, untarnished, hidden deep beneath all the grown-up worries and fluff. It’s a beacon of hope, strength and resiliency.

The world is still your backyard, the possibilities are still endless, and kindness is always an option. So don’t let yourself get too bogged down by the craziness of the world around you. Let go of the anger, forgive or better yet forget the bad stuff and bury it in the past where it belongs. This Thanksgiving, be thankful for the opportunity to start over, to move forward, to live another day. Be thankful for the freedom to chose to be happy and kind. Also remember to be thankful for all those difficult people you come across, because they are a reminder of what you never want to become.

Don’t let your fears and excuses take over your life.  Whatever you do, don’t stay stuck because if you do, life will pass you by…Trust me, if there’s one thing I’ve learned on my sabbatical from life it’s that you can’t run away from life. As hard and challenging as life may be, it gets so much better once you stop worrying about it and instead just start living and enjoying it!  So get living! Be bold, be brave, laugh, love, run, jump, leap!

Hunger Games

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Hunger Games

Hey, so yesterday was September 21st and for those of you who marked it on your calendar, it was also the first day of our 12 week challenge a.k.a Hunger Games 😥

But no, seriously this is a great thing, this is a good thing and I/we should be excited about taking charge of what we fuel our bodies with. However, breaking-up with something we love is never easy. Especially when it’s so sweet and comforting… 😦 I miss you already Dr. Pepper!!!

As some of you know, Sundays are like my favorite day of the week. Today however, is going by so slow, and I really really want it to be Sunday 12 weeks from now, but now! Did I mention this is just day 2??? Oh boy, it’s going to be a long week. I know that it won’t be easy. I apologize in advance to those of you who know me IRL, as I will most likely be insufferable for the first few weeks. Okay fine I’m not going to lie it will probably be more like for the first 8-10 weeks, so please bare with me. Remember that I’m not myself when I’m hungry, and whatever you do, don’t feed me Snickers or past 7pm.

For those of you who are in this challenge with me, know that I feel your pain already. If you’re laughing because it’s going great so far…just wait for it…the sugar/carb withdrawal will kick in, then by all means tell me all about it. We’ll get through this, so don’t quit on me okay? I like the idea that others are in this struggle with me. Also remember that we’re doing this based on an honor system, so don’t lie to yourself. The scale, our clothes and the responses from the people we know won’t lie in 12 weeks.

Just a few things to keep in mind:

  • Contrary to what my melodramatic post title says, this 12 week challenge is not a starving game.
  • It’s a challenge to detox from all the processed/junk food we consume
  • It’s about kicking the sugar habit to the curve (well except for the guilt-free Sunday cookie or your ONE and ONLY ONE cheat meal a week)
  • It’s about making healthier choices
  • It’s about bringing balance to your diet
  • Keep in mind that ‘diet’ is not a bad word it simply refers to what you eat
  • So make what you eat count
  • If you get hungry throughout the day, then eat more fruits and vegetables
  • If you’re thirsty, then drink more water
  • If you’re bored, sad, depressed, tired, can’t sleep, then workout!
  • Plan your meals, prep your food ahead of time, this will help.
  • Get rid of the junk in your cupboards, fridge, freezer, desk drawer or wherever else you stash what you’re not supposed to be eating.
  • Don’t buy junk food, if it’s not there, then you won’t eat it.
  • Tell your peeps about your challenge, you’ll be surprised how supportive people can be.
  • Don’t get mad at them when they call you out as you reach for that cookie you’re not supposed to have. Say thank you. Take a few deep breaths and repeat to yourself…I’ve got this, I’ve got this, I’ve got this!!!
  • If you feel like ranting, feel free to share on this blog. Be warned that I will, especially on days when people eat forbidden deliciousness near me 😕
  • Believe in yourself!
  • Don’t quit! Because it’s like RubySlippers says: “You’ve got this”!!!
  • And the results you ask? Well, it’s like Barney says if we don’t cheat and stick with it the results will be…wait for it…..LEGENDARY!

Insidious 2

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Insidious

Those of you who read my previous post, know that Sunday was movie day and also an attempt to break from my no social life pattern. I’ve recently made a new friend who happens to be an old childhood friend of one of my brothers, which makes this so totally random. It’s also proof that it’s a small world. Because what are the odds that I would meet someone who is pretty cool and laid back, befriend them and then find out they know my brother.

I don’t know about you guys, but I always get kinda nervous when I get friends from different places together at an event or outing. Ideally I’d love for all my friends to be friends which each other, but that doesn’t always work out. So I was pleasantly surprised when in spite of my brother’s antics, we all ended up enjoying the movie and having a few laughs afterwards.

At the end of the day, the best part of having friends is knowing that they still like you in spite of all the silliness. But just to make sure things didn’t get too out of hand for those who are oblivious to social queues, we’ve decided on a code word. Quesadilla or wait was it Unicorn? Nah! With a group of carboholics like us I think Quesadillas is easier to bring up in conversation….darn now I’m hungry! Story of my life! *LOL*

As for the movie, well, what can I say? It was creepy, had all sorts of special effects, sounds and all those things that might keep some people from sleeping or being in a room with a closet. So if you enjoyed the conjuring you might like the second installment of Insidious.

Aside from all the scary stuff, it also says a lot about friendship and family dynamics, ranging from the good, the bad and the utterly disturbing.  Some parts of this movie also seemed like a rehashed/revamped clip borrowed from the 80’s Poltergeist and other time traveling  and horror movies. Overall, Insidious 2 is better than most horror sequels because it’s carefully crafted and embedded with subtle clues that become clearer as the story progress and leaves those viewers who’ve watched both parts with a cohesive narrative.

I wish I could tell you that James Wan wrapped it up nicely, but you know how these stories go in Hollywood. It seems that in the movie industry, there’s always room for part III…So, before I spoil the ending or any part in-between for those of you who haven’t seen it yet, I’ll just code word myself to stop Quesadilla! Quesadilla!

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It will all make sense once you watch the movie, so be brave and check it out!

SPOILER ALERT!!!

bridesmaids-movie-quotesThose of you out there who saw Bridesmaids will remember Helen Harris and her horrible behavior towards poor Annie.  As such you might agree that the Insidious ghost lady symbolically evened the score between Annie & Helen when she B*slaps Rose Byrne who plays Renai in this movie…just saying.