21 Day Challenge: Day 8

Sometimes I feel like there should be a recovery day between the weekend and Mondays.  Since there isn’t I’ve decided to start looking at Mondays as an opportunity to set the pace for the rest of the week.  So when I go up this morning I started thinking of what was great about this new week and making a mental list of what I wanted to do this week and why.  I’ve decided to invite gratitude back into my life.  Because I know that I am very lucky and that whatever burdens or issues and challenges I think I have don’t even begin to compare to the hardship millions go through around the world.

Day after day horrible things happen in the world, and lately some people have started asking me why it seems that I’m never really aware of these or don’t find out until it comes up in conversation.  To be honest in the last few months it’s not that want to be ignorant of current affairs or that I don’t care, but more so that listening to so much negativity and chaos can sometimes get to be too much.  It really sucks us in, and we start to think that the world is just getting worst.

We forget that there are wonderful human beings out there trying to save lives everyday.  We forget that there are still strangers doing Acts of Random Kindness everyday.  We forget that there is still good and love in this world, and that all the energy we pour into reacting to all those terrible stories we could invest in doing good.  The world can still get better, and we can still make a difference.  So for those of you who ask if I just don’t care anymore, I say of course I do.  It’s because I care so much that I want to work on me, so that I can do more instead of just talking about it.

For now I want to follow Mr. Rogers’ advice and look for the helpers amidst all this senseless violence.  If only CNN would start focusing on them too, we’d see that there is still hope for us all.

That’s all for today.  Signing off at 12,685 steps today, and wishing you all a good night!  May tomorrow be a better day, and may you find a moment to be kind to yourself and others.



21 Day Challenge: Day 4

Well here I am, back from another busy day.  It’s 22:44h and I’m ready to get my pjs on and call it a day.  I had a long productive day at work, and attended a bereavement workshop, and then it was time for the drive home.  This time of year there’s traffic everywhere and never ending construction on every major road it seems.  The worst part is that they do it every year, they patch up a spot and then the next year another spot or the same spot.  I don’t know much about road or construction, but I’ve often wondered who does quality control on these repairs.  Again I know nothing about construction and this could very well be how it is, but it could also be that sometimes they are just poorly done and that’s why they keep needing patch after patch.

Still, I feel as if escaping traffic isn’t really possible at rush hour, so I’ve decided to invest in Siriusxm radio.  Some people think it is a waste of money, but I like the idea of driving without having to hear all the news breaks about all the bad things that keep happening.  At least for that 30-45min I can just be free with my thoughts and tunes.  Well as free as one can be when driving since there are so many reckless drivers out there.  I see mini vans zoom past me with their baby on board signs going 70km on a 50 road.  It’s just crazy, do speed limits mean nothing to people?  Or people who honk when you are waiting to turn at an intersection and can’t yet do so ssafely but they are almost kissing your bumper in the intersection, when, if I remember correctly there can only be one car out there to begin with, right?

It’s all these little things that make me consider taking the bus again and letting someone else worry about these drivers.  If only they knew that honking won’t make me turn unless I’m ready and feel it’s safe.  Someone should tell them that honking is to warn of danger, not a magic sound that makes others go faster.

But aside from all the crazies, I got to celebrate my friend’s Pokemon themed birthday.  The lady at the party story asked me if the balloon bouquet I was picking up was for a child or an adult, and I told her that I believed the word she was looking for was “man-child”:)  Since I had a round at the golf range after, I did something I have never done before.  I said no to ice cream cake.  I still can’t believe it!  But being lactose intolerant means there are somethings you shouldn’t have before going out.

Then I hit the range with two equally newb-ish friends so it was a safe judgement free area where everyone laughed at themselves and with each other.  Golf balls flew in all directions, but I am glad to report that everyone left injury free.  Then off course someone suggested frozen yogurt on the way home and how could I say no.  So after my vanilla almond milk frozen yogurt with some added deliciousness, I’m back here ready to call it a day.

Was this morning easier, no, it was not.  Will I keep trying, yes absolutely.  Why?  Maybe because I’m deranged or maybe because I need to see this through.

Today’s micro workout:

  • 12 push-ups
  • 12 sit-ups
  • 12 stationary lunges
  • 12 squats
  • 12 Spiderman crawls
  • 10 minute walk in the park post frozen yogurt

Well that’s it for this Cookiefiend.  Good night world, I’ll see you on day 5.  Officially signing off at 23h14.


X-Men: Days of Future Past


X-Men: Days of Future Past

It comes as no surprise that I had to go see the new installment of X-Men. I will admit that I had my reservations about this movie, but I was pleasantly surprised at how much I liked it. It seems to have been made to appeal to the dreamer and perhaps hopelessly romantic in me 🙂

Unlike the darkness of our beloved comic books, this movie was about hope and real second chances. It showed a more tempered Wolverine, and said a lot about relationships, friendships, and redemption.

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED the action and all the battle scenes that make X-Men so cool, but I guess after seeing so many horrible things on the news everyday, it’s nice to think of the possibility of a peaceful world.

We all make choices in life, some we are proud of and others we’d probably want to forget, but at the end of the day those choices make us who we are today. If you find yourself unhappy with who that is, just remember that it’s never too late to change for the better. Sometimes we stumble and lose our way, but in the words of Professor X: “Just because someone stumbles, loses their way, doesn’t mean they’re lost forever”.

Thanks for stopping by and following the ups and downs of my journey. I hope that wherever you are there will always be someone who believes in you, and pushes you to get right back up when you stumble.

Have a great week!




April 27 is here…I’m not sure if I’m excited or nervous, but there’s no turning back now. I’m not going to lie, I have not been training as one should for a run, as I have been struggling lately. But last week RubySlippers had a brief and stern chat with me saying I was out of control with my eating. So this Thursday after I returned from eating all the sinfully delish Mickey treats at Disney, we had our first workout together. Thinking back it may not have been the best of ideas, as my legs still hurt.

But I’ve made enough excuses for myself and now it’s time to pay and start putting in the work. So ready or not, this 5K is happening! I wish A.G. was running it with me, but there’s this thing called work that will keep her from joining me as I run my first 5K.

Well guys, wish me luck! I hope to be back to tell you all about it 🙂

Happy Anniversary!


Happy Anniversary!

Today I celebrate not only my 1st anniversary as a blogger but also all the wonderful people who read and follow my blog. Thank you so much for all your support and encouragement!!!!

This is not an easy journey for me, and it’s no secret that I struggle and fall of the wagon from time to time. But the great thing about this process is that I’m not in it alone. I have a great group of people rooting for me to succeed and get the upper hand on my less than healthy eating habits.

I still have a long way to go, but I’ll get there. One day at a time, one pound at the time. Until then, I hope I can continue to post a little more often, and hopefully go back to posting some workouts, especially with summer just around the corner.

Thanks again imacookiefiend followers, you guys are AWESOME!!!!

Final Thoughts:
When you think you can’t go on, and when that little voice in the back of your head starts telling you to quit, don’t! Look up, dig deep, and remember, it’s just like RubySpillers says: “You’ve got this!”

Marc and Angel Hack Life


Marc and Angel Hack Life

A friend of mine sent me a link to a really cool blog called Marc and Angel Hack Life. The post is titled 40 Amazing Things You Will Never Forget. My friend pointed to #34…the irony of it all. I don’t know why I didn’t find this blog sooner, but I guess if I had, then I wouldn’t have started my own blog or had the support and encouragement of all you wonderful Imacookiefiend followers 🙂

In case you’re wondering about #34, it says:  “When the sun finally shines through the dark clouds again. – Don’t give up on yourself.  Keep fighting.  Sometimes you’ve got to go through the worst of times to get the best.”

I know all too well that when you’re on a journey, sometimes inspiration can dwindle.  So it never hurts to have inspirational resources like Marc and Angel’s blog, just in case.

Next time you feel like quitting, please remember #34, because it’s what we’ve been working on these past 11 months.  It’s about not giving up on yourself…because in the end the sun does shine through those dark clouds!  So stay the course and keep at it, because it’s like RubySlippers says:  “You’ve got this!”

Echos through the years


Echos through the years

Birthdays…so bittersweet. I had such a great day yesterday, that I almost forgot to think of you…It dawned on me that I have lived over three decades now and still I know so little. But for all my shortcomings, I have and continue to know love and kindness.

You may no longer be here, but what I learned from you will continue to echo through the years, even long after I am gone…

To you, whom I once knew, who I loved, admired, with whom I laughed, cried, climbed walls, mountains, held hands, colored outside the lines, cheated at UNO, stared up at the stars, jumped off from chairs, sat in silence and learned lessons that no textbook will ever teach me, I say thank you.

Please forgive me for wasting the time and potential you saw in me. Forgive me for wallowing in self pity for so long. Forgive me for not embracing the life you fought so hard to keep. Forgive me for not honoring the memory that is you…

As I type away, the people who love me most in this world wait to celebrate the fact that I am here. Such a simple concept. I often find myself wondering what it is that makes people love us in spite of all our flaws. It’s kind of magic and rare really. Love is the real unicorn in the room. It’s that thing that keeps us together. A smile, a hug, a text, a call, a note, a hello for no reason at all…all little testaments of love ❤

So simple, yet so ephemeral. For all my absentmindedness know that thanks to you there is never absent-hearted-ness here. So in a few minutes when I walk up those stairs and get ready to celebrate one more year of being just me…I will also be celebrating you.

You, all the wonderful people I was privileged to know before your journeys on this world were cut short too soon. You my friends and loved ones who don’t get to Skype me at midnight to wish me a happy birthday anymore. You whose number I can still recite off by heart, but who now are in a better place, yet still make me smile when I hear that stupid song you use to sing so horribly. You who no longer have birthdays, and who are missed by so many…there’s a few of you up there now, so do me another little favor will you? Give my Guardian Angel a hand on keeping me out of trouble, it seems I am a handful at time 😉

I still suspect he purposely blinked to miss that moment before I broke my leg. Longest 5 weeks of my life!

But I digress…and apologize to those of you who read my blog and were expecting a workout related post. I did have a great pre-bday workout on Saturday and will likely post it at some point, but not today. I even climbed a wall with AG and walked in thigh deep snow and across some tracks on our way to get a very delicious meal…this winter workout though I might not elaborate on because my writing skills would not do justice to such and epic adventure #livingontheedge 😉

It’s getting late, birthday feast and cake await. Thank you for reading. Thank you for being you. Never forget that you have the power of being kind to someone. Let love and kindness be your legacy in this world, let it too echo through the years.

To my living friends, thank you for sticking around this long, I luv u guys!!!! To the friends I have yet to meet, I can’t wait to beat you at UNO, Jenga, Monopoly and who knows maybe even at a burpee challenge…uh I mean can’t wait to meet you, darn auto-correct LOL! 😉

P.S. Let’s keep moving, let’s keep breathing, but most importantly let’s start LIVING!