The Return

Hey Cookiefiends,

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve posted.  Life got in the way and I let it.  I started making excuses for myself, and I seem to be pretty good at making excuses.

I have also managed to undo all my progress and to be honest if it weren’t for puppy who has finally started going on walks and my slight addiction to PokemonGo I probably would be tipping the scale closer to the 200Lbs mark.  I haven’t weighed myself in a long time, but judging from the size of my jeans and the snugness, I am probably about 50-40Lbs away from that estimate which is not healthy when you’re just under 5′.

Once again I find myself at a crossroad, and although the right choice is easy to spot, the idea of getting started is so daunting.  There is no denying that even the universe is sending me signs, like a great deal on a no commitment gym membership.  A deal I could not pass up, but now have to put to good use.

Wish me luck as I start day 1 of this getting better journey reboot.  I’ve got a few episodes of a fun podcast about friendshipping called feel free to check them out, Jenn & Trin from Cards Against Humanity are not only amazing human being with big hearts, but also super funny 🙂

Good luck on living today to the best of your abilities!





21 Day Challenge: Day 9

In one of my recent posts I mentioned the power of language and self-talk.  I’ve been paying closer attention to what I say to myself in these last few days.  One thing I have noticed is that when it comes to my work which I love, I always tell myself I “MUST” or I “WILL” do this or that when I’m going through my tasks for the day.  I don’t use “maybe” or “might” but when it comes to working out or making other choices in my life I do use “maybe”, “might”, “tomorrow” and other words that make it easy to create excuses.

This evening I took and accidental nap.  I changed into my workout clothes to go for a walk, and instead of heading out right away I thought I would lie down for a moment, which I did, except that that moment turned into a two hour nap.  By the time I woke up I really didn’t feel like working out.  I honestly just felt like changing into my pjs and calling it a day.  But, then I remembered I would have to blog about it and decided I had to get it done.

So, I jumped out of bed and threw my running shoes on.  I made a choice and made getting some steps in a MUST rather than a MAYBE or a TOMORROW.  The funny thing about saying tomorrow is that that’s what I’ve been telling myself for months and it just never happened.  It’s too bad it have taken these rude 4:30 am wake-ups to get some clarity back.  The good news is that it’s getting better.

At then end of the day, it really is about choice.  There are some things in our lives we cannot control, but for those things we can control, it’s about being strong enough to make the right choice for ourselves.   Sometimes we’re lucky and have a RubbySlippers in our lives to push us beyond our comfort zone, and other times we have to be our own RubbySlippers and believe that we’ve got this!

So for those of you who are following along and maybe even doing this challenge with me, remember that your 4:30 AM may be a little different.  Maybe you work nights or evenings, maybe you have kids or loved ones you take care of, maybe there’s school and life going one.  But you always have the power to chose getting up 15 minutes before your usual wake-up time and progressively turn it into an hour of you time.  What you do with this time is up to you, but it will certainly get rid of the “I don’t have time excuse” and allow you to reclaim some ME-Time.

Well, that’s all for this Cookiefiend today.  Signing off at 11,028 steps for the day.  Good night world!


Happy Anniversary!


Happy Anniversary!

Today I celebrate not only my 1st anniversary as a blogger but also all the wonderful people who read and follow my blog. Thank you so much for all your support and encouragement!!!!

This is not an easy journey for me, and it’s no secret that I struggle and fall of the wagon from time to time. But the great thing about this process is that I’m not in it alone. I have a great group of people rooting for me to succeed and get the upper hand on my less than healthy eating habits.

I still have a long way to go, but I’ll get there. One day at a time, one pound at the time. Until then, I hope I can continue to post a little more often, and hopefully go back to posting some workouts, especially with summer just around the corner.

Thanks again imacookiefiend followers, you guys are AWESOME!!!!

Final Thoughts:
When you think you can’t go on, and when that little voice in the back of your head starts telling you to quit, don’t! Look up, dig deep, and remember, it’s just like RubySpillers says: “You’ve got this!”




As those of you who have been following my blog for sometime know, my friend A.G is getting married this summer. As such everyone is in workout mode. Although, we’ve both been working on fitness and keeping the weight we’ve lost off, it still is a struggle.

A.G’s motivation is a little more powerful than mine, as she has a dress to fit into…Still, the thought of me in a bathing suit should also motivate me to NOT skip workouts, and yet it doesn’t quite do the trick. This cold Canadian weather, ideal for warm sweatpants and big fluffy sweater can easily make you lose your focus and fall back into complacency…

So to avoid spiraling down the path I was on before, I’ve really had to dig very deep for motivation.  You know it’s bad when you start making excuses to miss your favorite Zumba class.  Still, there was one thing that had kept me coming to class and that is trying to learn a little dance AG wants us to do at her wedding.  Of course knowing that it takes me at the very least 7 months of prep time, I’ve had to keep going to Zumba.  Still, I have to say my progress was not looking promising at all.

I was however hopeful that once I pulled off AG’s belated Christmas surprise, things would improve.  Since AG reads my blog I hadn’t really been able to write about our secret plan to surprise her with a private Zumba lesson from our amazing instructor.  The plan was to have some of her closest friends get together and practice the song she wants us to perform at her wedding.  I’m happy to say that after months of schedule conflicts and cancellations we managed to pull it off.

Our turnout was not as expected but it was actually just the right size 🙂  AG’s face was priceless as she saw our Zumba instructor in the lobby of her building.  Total #fangirl moment.  It took her a few moments to figure out what was going on, but from then on she couldn’t really hide her excitement (and I have pictures and video footage to prove it).  I honestly couldn’t stop laughing when I started sending her the pics and video, because through most of her still shots she’s got the hugest smile!

In her own words, she was star struck, and I believe her.  You see AG loves taking selfies and for her to shy away from her phone, well it takes a lot.  In all honestly her crush level was comparable to that of a fan girl meeting Zac Effron, except she was trying to contain it and not appear too creepy, but the smile said it all lol!  We had a pretty great time, discovered that our Zumba instructors call our group their Zumbies, and also confirmed without a doubt that AG’s is without a doubt a solid Jenna Marble level 1 girl crush 🙂

So as I struggle through these next few weeks battling my eating habits, and crushing my excuses not to go to the gym, I’ll hold on to the fun times of Zumba, AG’s surprise, RubySlippers’ advice and remind myself why I’m doing what I do.  Motivation you see is the biggest part of it all and you have to make sure that no matter what anyone says you personally convince yourself that you are worth it!  That you are important and that you deserve to work on yourself, to improve and to train hard everyday to be the person you dream of being.

The truth is, it won’t be easy.  It won’t happen overnight.  There will be struggles, you will lose some battles, but if you stay the course, get back up, and keep at it, you will win the war against your fears, and that little voice in your head saying I Can’t.  If you ever feel like giving in or giving up, please don’t, just keep going because it really is like RubySlippers says: “You’ve got this!”

Day VI


Day VI

Sometimes you just need to stop, take a break and meditate. Except if you’re lost on some scary dead end dusty road, then don’t stop, just double back on your tracks and meditate later on why you keep trusting Siri.

I had forgotten how great it feels to just forget everything for a few minutes and focus inwards instead. Luckily, my foray into Twitterverse somehow landed me on @Oprah and that particular day she had tweeted about her #21DayMeditationChallenge. I took that as a sign from the universe that it was time to balance things out and focus not only on training hard to tone up my outer self but also to strengthen my inner self.

The great thing about this challenge is that each day’s meditation is around 15 minutes so time wise it’s easy to work them into your day. If you miss one, then you can listen to it the following day as they are available up to five days after the original post date. You can also do them more than once a day if you want to and they’re free, so it’s truly a win-win situation.

Remember working out is great. Training hard is good for you and so is eating healthy. But there’s more to you than just your body. So feed your mind, and love yourself enough to take some time to focus on you, to meditate and let go of all the stresses of your day and reconnect your mind, body & soul.

If you want to give the meditation challenge a try, here’s the link

Have an awesome day my @Imacookiefiend readers. Namaste.




It’s been a long day.
I’m Hungry.
I’m exhausted.
I haven’t had time.
I’ve been busy all day.
I still have so much to do.
I have to get up early tomorrow.
And my arms hurt from my last workout.

Yes, these are all excuses I have today for skipping my workout. If Duke & Dexter were still here instead of puppy heaven, I’m sure they’d help me come up with many more excuses. Actually, come to think about it they would probably take me for a walk. Because being active is much more fun with a furby or two in tow 🙂 Sadly mine are in a better place now and so I have to take myself for a walk.

We all lead busy lives, and we all have a lot on the go. So the key is to get organized and crush all those excuses. As valid as they may be, they are still just excuses. If I have time to watch tv or upload a post to my blog then that means I have time to as RubySlippers would say “work on fitness”!

That being said, I’m off to get a quick workout in before making myself the delicious shake that just popped into my mind 😉

On Today’s Menu:

  • Jumping Jacks
  • Squat Jumps
  • Burpees
  • Ski Jumps
  • Push-ups
  • Crunches

Time: 1 minute (Reps x time)
Rounds: IIII

Note 2 U:
Give it a try!  Don’t say you can’t until you try it.  Remember, if you have time to read this post, then you have time to get a least one set in.  So don’t think about it, just do it!  It’s like RubySlippers says:  “You’ve got this”! 🙂

What Time Is It?

NikeJediI woke up this morning and got up on the wrong side of the bed.  Literally on the wrong side, the one that’s a few inches away from the wall.  So mental note to myself, open your eyes before you roll out of bed.  I changed into my workout clothes and went back to bed for five more minutes just to wait for my alarm to go off.  It’s the story of my life I never want to go to sleep when I should, but then I wish I could sleep forever in the mornings.

So I stayed in bed trying to fake sleep, and then somehow slept through my alarm.  By the time I opened my eyes again it was too late for the class I normally go to on Tuesday mornings, and that little self sabotaging voice in my head suggested I just go back to bed.  Lucky for me I remembered that all of those classes in that studio are cancelled for renovation, so it’s workout on my own day today ugh!  I miss having RubySlippers to boss me around @ training time, especially when I feel this lazy *LOL*

It’s been four days since my last workout at the gym, and my body knows it which is probably why it’s dragging its feet so much.  So finally I just stopped thinking about it and dragged myself out the door and off to the gym.  As it happens it’s free fruit day at the gym so there were tons of apples at the front desk area as I walked by.  Bonus post-workout treat, but no lets not think of food, lets think of warming up and as RubySlippers would say:  “working on fitness”!

On Today’s Menu

  • Swings
  • BB Thrusters
  • Lat Pulldowns
  • Seated Rows
  • Sit-Ups
  • Kickouts
  • Plank Push-Ups


Sets:  IIII

Post-Workout:  Apple!

Pros:  #Enough sweat dripping to hide the tears #Happy Pain #Endorphins #Laziness Is Gone #Energy Boost #Free Apple #What Is Wrong With Me & Why Do I Enjoy This!

Cons:  It’s hard to think of one right now, aside from not having RubySlippers kicking my a uh I mean training me… but that might not be a Cons 😉

Final Thoughts:

Confirmed once again that Secret is a great deodorant!  Deodorant, the first step to keeping your friends close 🙂  Well, that and also showering after your workout helps *LOL*

Note 2U:

I hope that today all of my @Imacookiefiend readers will rise to my challenge and cross off all of the items on this list (Leave a comment to let me know how you did)

  1. Choose to be Happy!
  2. Be Kind
  3. Tell Someone You Love Them
  4. Do Something Nice
  5. Sm:)e
  6. Use Only Positive Self-Talk
  7. Drink More Water
  8. Workout
  9. Get Plenty of Sleep
  10. Dream Big!