imacookiefiend returns

Hello everyone! It seems like forever since my last post. I had given up on blogging because my life has been a little chaotic for the last few months and it seemed like I just didn’t have time to do anything really for myself.

I’ve been trying very hard to make myself actually do things like go to birthday parties when I don’t really feel like leaving the house and go to movies and brunches but I haven’t quite managed to make myself go to the gym.

I think in part it’s because things have been so busy that once I get home I just want to hangout with my Landshark a.k.a german shepherd who is also a cookie fiend.

The great thing about her is that she gets me out of the house and takes me on long walks. I joke that she was my coach and got me to go from couch potato to 5k road race finisher last month, but it’s true.

Although she is still rambunctious and a little unruly on walks she loves being outside and is happier when she is active. Taking her on long walks helps keep her out of mischief and also helps keep shoes and furniture intact.

She will be turning 2 in just a few months and is still just a big fluffy puppy with so much energy and love.

When there is so much craziness in the world, she reminds me of how important it is to do good if only to be deserving of a fraction of all the love she shares with me and all her humans everyday.

Whatever journey you’re on, keep at it because you’ll come out stronger in the end.

Thanks for reading!

 

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Day Off

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off-day-largeSometimes you just need a day off. Maybe not from your day to day obligations, but more so from people or things in your life that bog you down. I’ve come to realize that no matter how hard you try, you can’t please everybody. Sometimes in an attempt to make everyone else around you happy, you lose the balance in your life that once made you happy.

I’ve also discovered that some people love being miserable. They cling to drama and at times create it just to hold on to a twisted sense of power they feel over either playing victim or trying to make others feel guilty about being happy when they themselves are not. I don’t know if they are aware that they are doing this, and quite honestly I hope that they don’t do it purposely because intentionally raining on your friend’s parade is a horrible thing to do.

Unfortunately, I know two or three of these people. I’ve known them for a long time, and I think that’s why it’s so hard to sever ties… Still, I’ve know for a while now that I need a lot of distance from them. Because at the end of the day, they are toxic.

You might know people like them in your life. People who leave you feeling slightly depressed after every conversation with them. And by this I don’t mean a friend who is going through hard times or someone who has an uphill battle going on in their lives. Those are after all legitimate reasons for leaning on your friends, and I for one am all for helping your friends especially when they’re down.  But the people I’m referring to are those who have everything to be happy but don’t enjoy life because they keep looking back and even hold on to old grudges of something someone said or did in high school that nobody even remembers.  People who try to look for flaws in anything you say or do or who can’t move on without having the last word.  People who can’t even be happy for you when you have good news to share with them, and come close to making you feel bad about your good news.

Perhaps I’m not the bigger person at this time in my life, but I feel that if I’m working on me I have to make sure that I find ways of effectively shielding myself from their negativity or put some distance between me and them. For some it might mean taking a day off and away from them and for others it might mean an indefinite hiatus from those people who seem to have a knack for sucking the joy not only out of their lives, but out of others.

As for those with whom it’s close to impossible to distance myself from, then I’ve decided that I simply need to think happy thoughts when I’m around them, think of my favorite Dr.Seuss quotes and or maybe even mentally sing while they rant. I also have to remind myself that the things they say are not really about me, but a reflection of them and how they feel about themselves. Because if you can’t be happy for the sunshine in the life of the people you’re supposed to love and care about, then there’s some major issues you might need help working through.

Final Thoughts:

Overall it’s been a cold yet happy day today.  I’m doing something I really love, so work doesn’t feel like work and time seems to fly by.  I’ve taken a day off from caring about crappy things others have to say.  I’ve chosen to only believe what I want on this Off Day.  It also helps that A) I want to dream and believe only happy things today and B) I’ve found out my friend JT will be coming from all the way across the world to hang out & maybe hit a few Starbucks (official birth place of this blog) for cookies nom, nom, nom…Can’t Wait for boxing day, or more importantly JT’s flight arrival day!!!!

Note 2U:

  • Always chose happiness!
  • Don’t let a little rain stop you from dancing!
  • Be kind to yourself & others

Impossible

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Impossible

I dragged myself to the gym yesterday after a long and busy day. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this busy & it takes some getting use to. I’m grateful for the change and happy to be getting back to the days when I blend in cleverly disguised as a responsible adult.

I suspect that I will always be anywhere between five & six and a half at heart… especially when I’m at Toys R Us or walking down the cereal aisle and realize that just seeing Reese’s Pieces, Corn Pops & Trix cereal boxes make me smile in anticipation of the sugary happiness within…that’s totally normal right?

But getting back to my point of the day, as I was headed to the cardio room to attempt some vertical running once again, I ran in to an old friend. We started talking about the benefits of personal training, and how our bodies seem to like regaining those pounds we lose so it’s important to change things up and keep the body guessing. Our conversation then switched to life, and mutual friends. In the midst of it all my friend J mentioned how he’s recently been thinking of a career change, and I commented how great one of our friends is doing in turning her life around. I remembered how reluctant she was in the begin because of her age. But then she finally accepted that it’s never too late to follow your dreams no matter how unreachable or impossible they might seem, and now she’s working hard to make her dreams come true.  She’s inspiring, and getting others to see that once you stop making excuses and face your fears, then it can be done.

By the end of our talk and the beginning of his last set we concurred that if you get to a point in life where you find no joy in what you do and that dissatisfaction spills over into other aspects of your life, then it’s time to move on, to find something new that sparks your passion.  Because hating life is not an option.

So follow your heart!  Find what inspires you and find a way to make it happen! Remember that age is just a number, and “impossible” is either a beautiful national park in central America or a word that means it will take a little longer & a whole lot more hard work than “possible”.

My Challenge 2U:
Change, change and change some more! Do it again and again until you find something that works for you and makes you happy! Every change should be a stepping stone for something better.

From now on whenever you hear or read the word “impossible” visualize it and read it as “I’M possible” because YOU can make anything possible!!!  It won’t be easy, it will take time and require a lot of hard work but in the end it’s like RubySlippers says: “You’ve got this!”

So cheer yourself on: I’M POSSIBLE, I’M POSSIBLE, I’M POSSIBLE!!!!

P.S. I’ve been through The Impossible Pass and made it through alive…I also may or may not have run away and lost a camera to a crazy and curious ocelot…Somehow, this picture survived 🙂

A Little Wiki 4U:

El Imposible National Park contains a highly threatened dry tropical forest that forms part of the coastal mountain range Apaneca-Ilmatepec. The 9,000 acre of untamed wilderness ranges from 820 feet to 4,600 feet above sea level.  It was named for the perilous gorge which used to claim the lives of farmers and pack mules transporting coffee to the Pacific port. The park is home to an extraordinary variety of plants and animal life, including butterflies, pumas, tigrillos (a.k.a. ocelots), wild boars, king hawks, black-crested eagles and more.