21 Day Challenge: Day 9

In one of my recent posts I mentioned the power of language and self-talk.  I’ve been paying closer attention to what I say to myself in these last few days.  One thing I have noticed is that when it comes to my work which I love, I always tell myself I “MUST” or I “WILL” do this or that when I’m going through my tasks for the day.  I don’t use “maybe” or “might” but when it comes to working out or making other choices in my life I do use “maybe”, “might”, “tomorrow” and other words that make it easy to create excuses.

This evening I took and accidental nap.  I changed into my workout clothes to go for a walk, and instead of heading out right away I thought I would lie down for a moment, which I did, except that that moment turned into a two hour nap.  By the time I woke up I really didn’t feel like working out.  I honestly just felt like changing into my pjs and calling it a day.  But, then I remembered I would have to blog about it and decided I had to get it done.

So, I jumped out of bed and threw my running shoes on.  I made a choice and made getting some steps in a MUST rather than a MAYBE or a TOMORROW.  The funny thing about saying tomorrow is that that’s what I’ve been telling myself for months and it just never happened.  It’s too bad it have taken these rude 4:30 am wake-ups to get some clarity back.  The good news is that it’s getting better.

At then end of the day, it really is about choice.  There are some things in our lives we cannot control, but for those things we can control, it’s about being strong enough to make the right choice for ourselves.   Sometimes we’re lucky and have a RubbySlippers in our lives to push us beyond our comfort zone, and other times we have to be our own RubbySlippers and believe that we’ve got this!

So for those of you who are following along and maybe even doing this challenge with me, remember that your 4:30 AM may be a little different.  Maybe you work nights or evenings, maybe you have kids or loved ones you take care of, maybe there’s school and life going one.  But you always have the power to chose getting up 15 minutes before your usual wake-up time and progressively turn it into an hour of you time.  What you do with this time is up to you, but it will certainly get rid of the “I don’t have time excuse” and allow you to reclaim some ME-Time.

Well, that’s all for this Cookiefiend today.  Signing off at 11,028 steps for the day.  Good night world!



Day 2

I don’t know where time went today.  I woke up at 4:30 AM and have been feeling sluggish all day.  A friend of mine who has this habit, but who also has a 9 PM bedtime says it’s normal for the first few days.  Until your body adjusts to the shock, and you set an earlier bedtime for yourself.

I also had a work party to attend which was a nice break.  But I did feel like I was going to fall asleep there if I didn’t leave early.  Now, I just have to breakup with Netflix because it’s a bad influence.  I say to myself I’m going to watch one episode and next thing I know it’s past eleven.

No workout today, unless yawning counts.  I kind of wish RubbySlippers was here to tell me I’ve got this.  Since she’s not, I’ll just have to tell myself until I make it.

Here’s to day 3, may it be better than day 2.  Signing off at 23h23.  Wish me luck world!


So much has changed since my last post, that I’m not even sure what to type.  I could tell you all about my journey, but I feel like looking back is not the best thing for me right now…Lewis Caroll said it best:  “But it’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”.  Which is true, not only for me, but for you as well. 

Every day changes us, and every new day gives us an opportunity to change ourselves.  Change comes in so many shapes and forms.  For some the main focus is physical.  We call it fitness and we focus on it, and this is a good thing, as long as we don’t lose sight of everything else around us.  Because, more than just fitness, what we need is Wellness. 

Unlike fitness, wellness, requires us to take a long hard look at what lies beyond the looking glass, and deep within.  In my case it took trying to discipline my body to admit to myself that there are other aspects of my life that I have to get back on track with.  When you workout, people who train you always tell you to listen to your body, but unless you’re into yoga, nobody really talks about your mind.  If your mind is as busy as mine trying to keep everything together, juggling all the responsibilities that come with this little thing called adulthood, can be rather exhausting. 

Which is why we have to be careful not to forget to balance things out.  For me this means shifting my focus from fitness to wellness and trying to find that mind-body balance…and off course dealing with this tendency I have of being a workaholic when I’m doing something I truly enjoy, which lately is most of the time. 

My approach to life may be different now than it was a year ago, but my goal of getting better is still the same.  I’m ready to try new things and move forward, and to my surprise quitting is not an option in my mind anymore.  Which is a pretty big deal for me, and brings this new feeling of “unstuck-ness” for which I should thank a number of people in my life, like my friends & family who support me unconditionally.  You for reading my posts, for the likes & follows that are more encouraging than you will ever know.  And of course RubbySlippers, for being blunt, genuine and not letting me get away with minimum effort (commonly known as half-assing stuff).   But mostly for the “You`ve got this“ which may have started as a joke and somehow turned into a mantra…because, I`ve got this! 

I`m not quite sure which road I`ll take to where I`m going, but now that I`m back from my little hiatus, I`ll be sure to keep you posted.  I know that there will be countless bends in the road ahead, still, I’m curious to see where it will lead.











You only live once, so if you get the chance to fly, then fly!

Hi everybody, I’m back!  I know it’s been a while, but sometimes life has a way of getting in the way of my best intentions to get back to my blogging.  As I mentioned in my last post, we were heading of to AG’s wedding, which was AMAZING!

In spite of my best efforts not to cry, I couldn’t stop the tears once SC (also referred to as John in some speeches lol!) started with the waterworks.  So Charlie and future AG-SC human kids, know that your dad is to blame for basically most tears shed at the wedding.  The good thing is they were happy tears!

Sharing AG & SC’s special day was just, well, I can’t even find the words to describe how great it all was.  I mean there were hiccups along the way, but nothing the joy of parasailing or a golf cart drive couldn’t fix 🙂 

I’ll never forget those words as I got behind the wheel of our golf cart:  “are you sure we want you to drive, you can’t even park a real car”, still as great friends in tropical destination wedding resorts do, they all piled in the cart as I floored it.  Yes the whole 5mph lol!

We ate, we cried, we cheered, we danced, we laughed, we swam with dolphins, we watched out for each other, and some of us even made new friends 🙂

So now, as I get back to the swing of things and walk around with these few extra pounds, I know it’s really time to stop dancing around the issue, and get my eating under control no matter how daunting that may be. 

To be honest, more than a RubbySlippers, what I really need is someone to walk around with me and slap all the junk food choices right out of my hands.  But shusssssh! Don’t tell RubySlippers because she just might do it.




Ground Rules


TrooperliftingSo it’s back to real workouts with Rubbyslippers this week, and we are venturing into olympic lifting.

It looks simple enough, and she says I should be able to do it because I have strong legs. So on our first attempt, I realized that it isn’t as easy as it looks. There is a lot of technique behind it, and I’m over-thinking it as much as I over-think parking which seems to be the easiest thing in the world for everyone but me.

So we practiced the initial lift, then the shrug and then the next part was a #fail! As frustrated and angry as I was at not being able to get it right, it was nice to have RubbySlippers be so calm and encouraging about it all.

Her advice was for me to keep practicing until I got it right, and to keep it to single sets because it’s easy to overdo it. I have to say that this olympic lifting venture will put all my anger management skills to the test, because I may look ok on the outside (and by ok I mean like I’m dying of exhaustion), but on the inside there’s a full on nerd-rage going on. Like a Hulk style tantrum, but like a five-foot-nothing little Hulk. Hopefully I’ll keep it all contained until I can actually do a real clean lift.

I have to say that I was also surprised that I actually did sweat just from lifting the bar which is only 45 lbs, so I guess 45 lbs plus anger kinda work for me 😎

Now A.G’s wedding is in 8 days and I can’t wait! I think we’ll all have such an amazing time, and it will be nice not to worry about schedules and all the responsibilities of the grown-up world. Aww Freedom!

One thing I love about going on vacation is that although it’s rest time, I find that I’m always on the go. Whether it’s swimming around in the pool or with some dolphins there’s always something going on, so I don’t feel like I’m just laying around. Although, trust me, there is also plenty of lounging around time to be had.

Although I’m still a good 20 lbs from my ideal weigh goal, I have to say that I’m happy I haven’t given up on myself, and I’ve still got some juice left to keep at it. At the end of the day, that’s what matters. Remember that even if you’ve fallen off the healthy wagon a million times, you can still get back on, because it’s like RubySlippers says: “You’ve got this!”

GoHabsGo !!!!


GoHabsGo !!!!

Life has gotten pretty busy, and with it more meals on the go, and that re-occurring problem I have with putting the food away…

My pants and workout tights have spoken as loud and clear as I cheer for the Habs each game. So it’s back to the grind for me. RubbySlippers and I have started training again for real, no more half-assed workouts, and maybe no more Zumba for a while.

I know I can workout on my own, I just continuously find excuses not to. So to avoid any more excuses I’ve got RubbySlippers back in my corner for one more round.

There are a lot of great things happening this summer and a bit of traveling to look forward to, so hopefully between A.G and I, we’ll have some cool pictures to share in the next few weeks of nicer climates.

I can’t wait to go away and re-group and re-charge with a little sun on the beach 🙂 In the mean time, there’s lots of work to be done, and inspiration everywhere. One huge source of inspiration is in fact A.G. who is looking AMAZING! T-23 days til her big day and Instagram proves that she is killin her workouts, go AG!

Also my other incredible friend KB, to whom I recently gave an old Polaroid of her that I found from 2001, and a side by side of how far she has come. Honestly every time I see these girls I am in awe at how awesome they are. I probably need to see them more often to get my butt back to some real workouts.

So word to the wise, surround yourself with people who are positive and goal oriented. Who are so strong that they will help you up when you stumble or fall off the wagon. When the day comes and you reach your own personal goals, remember to pay it forward.

Well, that’s all for now, back to the Habs!!!! Tied 1-1 so far, our last Canadian team in the playoffs.  We’re sticking by them till the end, even if they’re down 2-0 this series #GoHabsGo!!!!!

Marc and Angel Hack Life


Marc and Angel Hack Life

A friend of mine sent me a link to a really cool blog called Marc and Angel Hack Life. The post is titled 40 Amazing Things You Will Never Forget. My friend pointed to #34…the irony of it all. I don’t know why I didn’t find this blog sooner, but I guess if I had, then I wouldn’t have started my own blog or had the support and encouragement of all you wonderful Imacookiefiend followers 🙂

In case you’re wondering about #34, it says:  “When the sun finally shines through the dark clouds again. – Don’t give up on yourself.  Keep fighting.  Sometimes you’ve got to go through the worst of times to get the best.”

I know all too well that when you’re on a journey, sometimes inspiration can dwindle.  So it never hurts to have inspirational resources like Marc and Angel’s blog, just in case.

Next time you feel like quitting, please remember #34, because it’s what we’ve been working on these past 11 months.  It’s about not giving up on yourself…because in the end the sun does shine through those dark clouds!  So stay the course and keep at it, because it’s like RubySlippers says:  “You’ve got this!”